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Stagnation
Sep. 14th, 2004 03:40 pmI'm in another rut. I can't seem to get going, get motivated, get things done. Even right now, I was about to pay some bills, but now I'm like.... mmm... shiny... ::runs off::
My room can't get empty enough - I want to clean out enough to let my ferrets roam free as much as they need to. Every time I feel motivated to move things into my car, it rains. Then when it's nice out, I'd rather putz around on my puter playing Spider Solitaire.
The furniture that needs to be moved, is a 2+ man job. I can move my TV, my nightstand, maybe my dressers.... all by myself, but moving the couch and bed and all is going to take work.
School is frustrating, the only class I have had "homework" in is my French class, and my Psych415 class has these things called "reaction papers" which at max can be 5 pages long, and when I asked the professor when we'd get the topic for the paper, he was like "um, I don't underatand..." so I asked if it'd be 1 day, 1 week, 2 weeks... etc... he said it may be a week, but he said it like it was of no consequence - I asked because I need to plan out my weeks for school, and the first paper is due in 2 weeks.
sigh. I'm sad apparently. Maybe it's depression. My therapist still doesn't think that I warrant meds, because I still eventually function, even though I am slow. I'll ask her again. Besides, if I have any hopes of getting on a plane within the next year, I WANT MEDICATION.
My room can't get empty enough - I want to clean out enough to let my ferrets roam free as much as they need to. Every time I feel motivated to move things into my car, it rains. Then when it's nice out, I'd rather putz around on my puter playing Spider Solitaire.
The furniture that needs to be moved, is a 2+ man job. I can move my TV, my nightstand, maybe my dressers.... all by myself, but moving the couch and bed and all is going to take work.
School is frustrating, the only class I have had "homework" in is my French class, and my Psych415 class has these things called "reaction papers" which at max can be 5 pages long, and when I asked the professor when we'd get the topic for the paper, he was like "um, I don't underatand..." so I asked if it'd be 1 day, 1 week, 2 weeks... etc... he said it may be a week, but he said it like it was of no consequence - I asked because I need to plan out my weeks for school, and the first paper is due in 2 weeks.
sigh. I'm sad apparently. Maybe it's depression. My therapist still doesn't think that I warrant meds, because I still eventually function, even though I am slow. I'll ask her again. Besides, if I have any hopes of getting on a plane within the next year, I WANT MEDICATION.
